sad

sometimes when my phone rings and it's from either my mom or dad, i am afraid it's going to be bad news. my gpa is very sick with cancer and hasn't been doing too well. so last night after we all went out to mexican, i got a call from my mom...i didn't answer it, cause we were eating. i told joe that i was hoping it wasn't going to be bad news...i just had a feeling (cause i had alread talked to my mom earlier in the night). well i called my mom back and it was bad news...my sister's lifelong best friend was just diagnosed with lymphoma cancer...when i was home last week, she came over and told us that the doctor was worried about some swollen lymph nodes and she was going to have them checked out this week...i never thought it would have turned out this way. i just feel so bad, this little girl (i call her little, cause she's my little sister's best friend) hasn't had the easist life the past couple of years...she almost died in a car accident 3 years ago and was at harborview for quite sometime...she finally recovers from that and bam, gets hit with this. she is going to come live with her dad and stepmom (who is a doctor) in seattle while she gets treatment. i really want to do something nice, but i can't seem to think of what....
i also feel so bad for her parents, now that i have kids, geez i just can't imagine what they must be going through -hell. it makes me so sad to think about it. but lymphoma is a cureable cancer and most cases are cured...so that is sooo hopeful. so please pray for her...her name is sara.
so thinking about this, makes me think of my gpa...i just can't handle death (who can though?)...i know it's going to happen. he has dealt with cancer for probably the past 15 years, he is the most optimistic man i have ever met - he's fought through it all and now i am afraid is giving up. he's 88 years old and has lived a great life, but it doesn't matter how old you are, it's still hard. i am going back in a couple of weeks to spend some time with them again...now i just hope jade will sit on his lap (last visit she wouldn't).
it's almost 9am, hopefully the day will get better....once the sun comes out..it will! :)